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Drabble For You - Once Destiny Passes

ETA: Thanks to the beta skills of the wonderful sangpassione, Once Destiny Passes is 'New and Improved.' Thank you, sweetie, for all your encouragement and effort.

Just 500 some odd words based on last night's episode, "You're Welcome." Spoilers for the episode, of course.. and just some speculation on the future.


Once Destiny Passes

As his fingers mindlessly slid over the controls on the gamepad, pushed buttons and maneuvered the joystick when necessary, Spike came to the conclusion that he was impressively drunk. He knew he was telling those sodding monkeys to bean the plumber with the barrels… but it wasn’t happening. However, unlike earlier in the afternoon, when he almost ripped the telly to pieces trying to shake the digital creatures into submission, he rose from the couch and turned the thing off.

He’d had enough playing games. Point of fact, he’d had enough of being played as well. How long had it been going on? How long had he been fooled, used, played with, and abused? Seemed like his entire life and unlife had been one bloody barrel of usage.

Usage, Spike snorted as he stalked into his tiny kitchen. Buffy had left her mark on him in more ways than one and spouting Scooby-speak was a sure sign that he was not only drunk, but exhausted as well. Leaning heavily on the counter and watching his blood turn slowly in the microwave, his eyelids drooped. Sleep sounded like a really good idea.

Hunger sated, Spike curled up on his tiny bed, pulled the blanket up to his ears and tried to let it all go. So he could sleep. So he wouldn’t have to think about the day’s events. His failures. It didn’t work. Not for a moment.

He’d told Angel’s gang that he’d been embarrassed, thinking he had some sort of destiny; admitting to being played by that prat, Doyle. No - Lindsey. Being called stupid by Angel in front of them all hadn’t helped, but there was no real animosity behind the words, for a change. For the first time, when all was said and done, he hadn’t been dismissed and told to slink away into the dark. They’d all gone for drinks. Odd that Angel and the cheerleader hadn’t shown up but, he supposed, they were chatting about old times. He could certainly understand that… the need to spend time with someone you… well, too late, too tired. That road wouldn’t lead to anything good at the moment.

Wondering what was going to come next, Spike mentally juggled a few ideas. He could always go back to Wolfram & Hart. Be another of Angel’s do-gooding minions. He could go out on patrol like he used to do in Sunnyhell. He could stay in his basement, and hide away from it all.

He decided that he wanted to do something. Needed to do something; the right thing. He’d been helpful sidekick vamp for a long time now. And no matter what he said to Angel in the heat of the moment, it wasn’t a bad thing to be.

Spike sat up in bed, rolled his shoulders, cracked his neck and back, flexed his fingers and toes. Felt sorted for the first time in forever. He knew what he had to do. He needed to let go of that “destiny” bollocks and go back to his old way of operating. Just do the best he could, and let the chips fall where they may. Good times.

The small alarm clock on the night stand ticked away the seconds he had no need to count and, when Spike finally fell asleep, a contented smile curved his lips.

Hope you like.

Comments

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wackinessensues
Feb. 5th, 2004 07:18 pm (UTC)
That was great hon, in fact I think I'd like to put it at CP&D if you have no objections. I need to be a better site mommy and put non-slash Spike/Angel there too, lol.

Nice ending to it, accepting that most people are destiny free and still do the right thing, nice.

Kisses!
spikes_heart
Feb. 5th, 2004 07:33 pm (UTC)
Re:
It's yours. Well, available to you, anyway. I am thrilled that you want it on your site. Yay, me! Thank you, too.

Let me know which of the other pieces you want, and as soon as they're cleaned up, you've got 'em.

You made my heart sing, Tania.
wackinessensues
Feb. 6th, 2004 09:05 am (UTC)
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I want em all *whines* lol.

This one definitely and the drabble from the other day that we talked about, especially the first two parts.

Let me know if you need another pair of eyes to look at them, etc.
psubrat
Feb. 5th, 2004 07:58 pm (UTC)
Very well done, dear. Bravo. You're doing a wonderful job with the characterization of Spike and you certainly know how to get inside his head. Looking forward to hearing more from you in the future.
spikes_heart
Feb. 5th, 2004 08:05 pm (UTC)
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I'm glad to hear I did Spike justice in your eyes. Makes me a happy fledge. More will be forthcoming.
brandil
Feb. 5th, 2004 08:01 pm (UTC)
I did like, very nice.
spikes_heart
Feb. 5th, 2004 08:08 pm (UTC)
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Thanks for your continued encouragement, Brandi. Lots more to come.
redwolf
Feb. 5th, 2004 08:17 pm (UTC)
Very nice. Love your Spike voice.
spikes_heart
Feb. 5th, 2004 08:23 pm (UTC)
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I feel giddy, oh so giddy. I feel giddy, and witty and something or other. So glad you enjoyed.
tgray
Feb. 5th, 2004 09:06 pm (UTC)
That was absolutely wondeful. The wording was perfect and the content...well, exactly what I would wish for.
spikes_heart
Feb. 5th, 2004 09:11 pm (UTC)
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**smooches** for being so kind. What next, eh?
evilmaniclaugh
Feb. 6th, 2004 12:31 am (UTC)
Loved the way Spike brushed the 'destiny' thing aside in the episode and I thought you captured the after effects brilliantly.

Spot on characterisation.

See, writing does = chocolate!!!!
spikes_heart
Feb. 6th, 2004 12:38 am (UTC)
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Spike always did make his own choices, for the good or for the bad. Being ruled by the Shanshu, or trying to best Angel didn't sit well with me. Not that it's gonna be all lovey-dovey between the boys... but Spike is his own vamp. I needed him to remember that.

Glad you enjoyed.
entrenous88
Feb. 6th, 2004 06:59 am (UTC)
A nice character-piece. I agree that Spike would have registered the incidents with Lindsey as more disheartening than he let on in the episode. I'm always interested to read a shifted-perspective piece...I like your take on how the week's events ended for Spike.
spikes_heart
Feb. 6th, 2004 09:36 am (UTC)
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Somebody has to take care of Spike... character-wise. Glad you enjoyed. BTW - nicely beta'd and cleaned up now, should you care to revisit.
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