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The Disgust of Feeling Impotent...

Grrrr.... got off the phone with the lawyer again today... still haven't gotten any satisfaction in my quest to get back support payments from the ex. Cretin is well on the way to owing me $6,000. Haven't heard a WORD from him since he last paid me in August 2003. Not a single, solitary word. I am sure he thinks I'm just gonna lay down and die without a single whimper.

WELL... not this girl. Told the lawyer I want him threatened. Want him to have to charge his payments if he has no other way. Don't care - he has a legal obligation, and he has to come through. If he's NOT gonna pay me, I want his freaking ass in jail. Let him get up close and personal with Bubba and his buds. I WANT MY MONEY!

And frankly, folks... I'm scared to death. Money is running out... job not showing itself no matter how hard I look. Feeling too fat, too old, too useless. Nothing I do seems to make a difference, and all I feel like doing is pulling the covers over my head and not coming out. Lawyers suck, exes suck, life in general just fucking sucks. I feel like giving up will get me the same results as bashing my head against the wall. Nothing I do makes a difference. I scream, and search and try to do what's right... and it's all amounting to a pile of shit. Bills keep coming... mocking me. I'm so damned angry... and it seems as if there's fuck all I can do about it.

Just... thanks for reading if you choose to, and thanks for just being there. Tomorrow is just another fucking day, right? </self>

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spikes_heart
Jan. 12th, 2004 03:20 pm (UTC)
Vermont, and I wish it were child support - no, this is spousal support... and since he hates me, it seems to be easy for him to take it for granted. To make matters worse - he's been out of work. Not like I give a shit - let him charge what he owes... it is legally binding... and if I am not gonna get anything out of him, I want the satisfaction of jail. Thanks for caring.
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spikes_heart
Jan. 12th, 2004 03:18 pm (UTC)
Shit... I'll freaking go under if I have to go through this for 3 years. Don't know how you manage to survive... but give you kudos for it. Thanks for caring. We can always take this to email for the down and dirties... spikes_heart@yahoo.com.
kallysten
Jan. 12th, 2004 03:06 pm (UTC)
*big hug*
spikes_heart
Jan. 12th, 2004 11:12 pm (UTC)
You know you get **big smooches** back atcha!
dragonflymuse
Jan. 12th, 2004 03:10 pm (UTC)
sorry for all of that. I hope your lawyer can get you some satisfaction soon.
spikes_heart
Jan. 12th, 2004 11:13 pm (UTC)
Me, too! And I'm gonna ask the lawyer to sue shithead, and then charge him for the lawsuit charges as well. The freak! Thanks for the kind thoughts.
evilmaniclaugh
Jan. 12th, 2004 03:23 pm (UTC)
*big all embracing comforting hug*

I wish I could make it all go away for you. I don't have the same problems but I do have an evil psychotic teenager to make my life absolute hell.

Hoping it'll all get better for you soon, Baby.
spikes_heart
Jan. 12th, 2004 11:16 pm (UTC)
Evil, psychotic teenager is rather redundant. Both of mine are on the other side now - 21 and almost 25, and things are distant since they live in NY, and I am here in VT, but they can still find ways to to bring a little hell into my life. Love 'em, but dayum!

**snuggles up into the hugs on a chilly nite** and many thanks for the kind words.
misanthrope7842
Jan. 12th, 2004 03:26 pm (UTC)
::hugs::
spikes_heart
Jan. 12th, 2004 11:18 pm (UTC)
**smooches** Thinking of happier thoughts... spring training for the Yankees! **grins**
xmirax
Jan. 12th, 2004 10:43 pm (UTC)
*big hugs*
spikes_heart
Jan. 12th, 2004 11:18 pm (UTC)
**sloppy smooches**
sailorlum
Jan. 13th, 2004 07:40 pm (UTC)
{{{big hug}}}

Karma will eventually get him.
spikes_heart
Jan. 13th, 2004 08:06 pm (UTC)
I am sooo hoping for it to come back and bite him on his ass. I'm just not a 'turn the other cheek' kinda gal. Thanks so much for caring.
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