WELL... not this girl. Told the lawyer I want him threatened. Want him to have to charge his payments if he has no other way. Don't care - he has a legal obligation, and he has to come through. If he's NOT gonna pay me, I want his freaking ass in jail. Let him get up close and personal with Bubba and his buds. I WANT MY MONEY!
And frankly, folks... I'm scared to death. Money is running out... job not showing itself no matter how hard I look. Feeling too fat, too old, too useless. Nothing I do seems to make a difference, and all I feel like doing is pulling the covers over my head and not coming out. Lawyers suck, exes suck, life in general just fucking sucks. I feel like giving up will get me the same results as bashing my head against the wall. Nothing I do makes a difference. I scream, and search and try to do what's right... and it's all amounting to a pile of shit. Bills keep coming... mocking me. I'm so damned angry... and it seems as if there's fuck all I can do about it.
Just... thanks for reading if you choose to, and thanks for just being there. Tomorrow is just another fucking day, right? </self>