Spike's Heart (spikes_heart) wrote,
Spike's Heart

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How I See Them

Going through my bunny warren, I found a small piece I'd written describing the Buffy in my head almost ten years ago. I wrote a companion piece today describing Spike, and decided to share them both with you.

My Buffy

Was as shallow as season one Cordelia, before her calling.

Cares too much about the opinion of her friends, to her own detriment.

Suffers from abandonment issues.

No longer needs her Daddy.

Placed far too much stock in her first love.

Misses her Mommy.

Developed an eating disorder.

Alternately resents and relishes her role as Dawn’s guardian.

Loves her family and will protect them against all odds, to the detriment of her friends or the rest of the world.

Has “bleedin’ tragic taste in men.”

Finally learned there were shades of gray in life and Slaying modes.

Despaired of ever having the elusive ‘normal’ life.

Learned she really didn’t want one.

Sometimes wishes she did.

Loves leather.

Treated Spike like absolute crap, first ignoring him, then using and finally abusing him.

Realized there was value in the monster.

Learned there was weakness in the man.

Relied on the amalgam.

Has balls of steel and a heart made of spun glass.

My Spike

Started out life as an overly sensitive soul with Mommy issues.

Probably Daddy issues, as well.

Could see the beauty in the world around him.

Lacked the ability to fully put it into words.

Was teased and bullied from a very early age.

Was looked down upon by everyone except his mother.

Literally died from a broken heart.

Took to unlife with a vengeance.

Found a pecking order there, too.

Forged a persona to protect himself from his new family.

Retained more of William’s heart (foibles) than he cared to.

Loved Drusilla with all that he was for over a hundred years.

Loved Dawn as a younger sister.

Fell in love with Buffy against his will.

Broke himself over and over against the wall of her rejection.

Made his way into her pants, and eventually into her heart.

Hurt her as a man, not a monster.

Fought for his soul to protect her.

Became a pawn of the First.

Regained Buffy’s trust despite her friends’ objections.

Became her Champion; saved the world.

Reunited with Buffy after becoming corporeal.

Loved, fought, bickered, made-up for the rest of their lives together.

If anyone would like to add their thoughts to these scribblings, I'd love to hear from you.

cross-posted to spuffy_haven
Tags: fic

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