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No Time Like the Present

... Especially since nobody is guaranteed a future.

Anyway, sorry I've fallen off the map since my lovely diagnosis. I didn't mean to, but...


I've been undergoing such a multitude of scans that for Halloween today, I'm going as a glow-in-the-dark skeleton. So far I've had two CAT scans with and without contrast, and last week I had two MRIs with contrast, and this past Monday I had a PET scan. When they bring out the contrast you're about to be shot up with in a lead-lined box and put you in a lead-lined room, it makes one think weird thoughts.

Anyway, all the scans have been studied and of course, it's a good news/bad news scenario. The good news is the abdominal lymph nodes they were worried about because they were somewhat swollen are fine. The cancer is seemingly confined to my uterus which is where they'll target the radiation. The bad news is they discovered what they call a lesion somewhere under my sternum. It can be anything from totally benign to well... worse, more cancer. Really helpful, that. I'm going to have to go in for a damned biopsy. They're gonna use another series of CAT scans to guide a needle to try and grab a piece of the lesion to see what it is.

I can tell you that I am totally petrified of this procedure. I don't like pain. Not in the bloody slightest. They're going to give me a shot to numb things first, but is there such a thing as being numb for the numbing shot? **sighs**

Next week I have an appointment for 'treatment verification', and I believe the radiation starts on Thursday. I'll get the schedule at the verification. Wish me luck, folks. Personally, I think enough is enough. Cancer really is the gift that keeps on fucking giving, isn't it?


And that's the way it is as of today.

Comments

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gillo
Oct. 31st, 2013 11:04 pm (UTC)
Thank you for the update, love. You are always in my thoughts.

{{{hugs}}}
tabaqui
Oct. 31st, 2013 11:11 pm (UTC)
Ah, i'm sorry, bb - being poked and prodded is no fun at all.

Be well!
*hugs*
spikes_heart
Nov. 5th, 2013 06:46 am (UTC)
Doing the best I can, love. Thanks for being here! *hugs*
spikes_heart
Nov. 5th, 2013 06:46 am (UTC)
Miss you, Gill. Thanks for the kind thoughts. *smooches*
hobbituk
Oct. 31st, 2013 11:42 pm (UTC)
I am so sorry - I must have missed your previous post. I'll be keeping my fingers crossed for a positive outcome to the biopsy and hope the other treatment goes well.

*hugs*
spikes_heart
Nov. 5th, 2013 06:48 am (UTC)
Thanks, hon. Looks like I'll have to chase them down to set the date for the poke. Gotta love the lack of hurry they seem to be in. *hugs you back*
janedavitt
Oct. 31st, 2013 11:46 pm (UTC)
I'm sending all kinds of good thoughts your way and I hope none are needed and all goes well :;hugs you tight::
spikes_heart
Nov. 5th, 2013 06:49 am (UTC)
Thanks, Jane. In the meantime I'm in a holding pattern until they actually schedule the snatch and grab. **sighs**
eurydice72
Oct. 31st, 2013 11:49 pm (UTC)
Oh, hon, all my prayers and best for you. The big C sucks all the way around.

*squishes you*
spikes_heart
Nov. 5th, 2013 06:51 am (UTC)
Thanks for your kind words and prayers, Sig. I'm hoping for the best. Cancer does, indeed, suck.
enigmaticblues
Nov. 1st, 2013 12:25 am (UTC)
*big hugs* I'm so very sorry that you're dealing with this. Cancer really fucking sucks. I hope the biopsy comes back clean, and there's nothing more to worry about.
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:21 am (UTC)
Right now I'm still chasing around the appointment to get the bloody thing. Thanks for your kind thoughts, hon.
elinora
Nov. 1st, 2013 01:13 am (UTC)
I'll keep you in my thoughts...and I'm hoping all works out well for you.
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:22 am (UTC)
Thanks for the good thoughts, sweetie. I'm hoping, too.
lyrstzha
Nov. 1st, 2013 06:16 am (UTC)
I wish you better health and as little pain as possible. *hug*
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:22 am (UTC)
A girl after my own heart. Thanks, hon.
elisi
Nov. 1st, 2013 08:23 am (UTC)
Sending you good thoughts and prayers and everything else. Here's to hoping that it's going to be quick!
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:23 am (UTC)
*gathers up the goodness and stuffs it in my pocket** Thanks, love.
petzipellepingo
Nov. 1st, 2013 08:29 am (UTC)
Massive good vibes headed your way.
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:25 am (UTC)
*hauls out my catcher's mitt* Thanks, hon.
ssddgr
Nov. 1st, 2013 09:19 am (UTC)
I'm really sorry you're dealing with this and wish everything will be better soon. *hugs*
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:25 am (UTC)
Better would be wonderful, hon. Thanks for caring.
shapinglight
Nov. 1st, 2013 09:51 am (UTC)
I've been wondering how you were. Thanks for updating us.

The biopsy sounds horrible but I will hope for the best and that it will be good news.
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:27 am (UTC)
Thanks, Deb. Am hoping it's not as bad as I fear. Now all I need is for them to set the bloody appointment already.
debris4spike
Nov. 1st, 2013 11:37 am (UTC)
*hugs* you tight
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:27 am (UTC)
**hugs you back**
missus_grace
Nov. 1st, 2013 06:58 pm (UTC)
Please hang in there, and know that you have people who are rooting for you, sending good thoughts to you, and praying for you.

*hugs*
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:28 am (UTC)
It helps to know people are thinking good thoughts for me. Thanks so much for caring, hon.
caliente_uk
Nov. 1st, 2013 09:40 pm (UTC)
My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you. *many hugs*
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:29 am (UTC)
Thanks so very much. **hugs you back**
cordykitten
Nov. 1st, 2013 11:32 pm (UTC)
Long time no see. I wished you had better news / were better.
*hugs you careful*

Hope all turns out well for you. sends *get well wishes* and good thoughts.
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:30 am (UTC)
Thanks, Cordy. I can use all the good vibes I can get. **hugs**
brunettepet
Nov. 1st, 2013 11:43 pm (UTC)
I'm sorry you're going through this. I'll be keeping you in my thoughts *hugs*
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:31 am (UTC)
**squishy hugs back at you**
desdemonaspace
Nov. 2nd, 2013 04:55 am (UTC)
I am so glad you posted and gave us the news, which is better than I feared. I wanted to message you, but didn't want to bug you.

As a fellow "fallen off the map-er," I'm just so glad of news about you. You must know we're all sending you all the positive good vibes we can.
spikes_heart
Nov. 6th, 2013 05:31 am (UTC)
Thanks for the kind thoughts, hon. It all helps. *smooches*
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